♪ songs are in my head like they always are ♪
fantasy is more important than knowledge
2nd-Jan-2013 11:36 am
I haven't been able to get LJ to load long enough to post a new year's post, so we'll see how crossposting from dreamwidth works. *fingers crossed* (speaking of dw, if any LJ people want to add me there, I have the same username, just let me know who you are if your username is different)

My new year didn't start off much different from any other day the past couple months. I ended up going to bed around 10:30 new year's eve because I haven't been feeling well lately. Then I woke up to a defriending notice from LJ. So that was fun. According to her LJ post, she removed everyone who didn't meet her comment quota for the year. But she hasn't been commenting too much to me either, so it's a two way street. She added me back after I left a comment on her post, but I haven't done anything about it. (and even if I wanted to, LJ has barely loaded long enough for me to take care of arashi_on queue stuff). I don't know, I'm getting kind of sick of her guilt trips and the games she plays so maybe it's time to part ways. It's just hard when it's an LJ friend who turned into a RL friend. :/

Back in fandom land: I finally started watching fall season dramas. I've watched all the currently subbed episodes of Priceless and Monsters and I just finished episode four of Osozaki no Himawari. I'm enjoying them all for very different reasons. Monsters is the most fun to watch, but I think Osozaki no Himawari is the one where I care about the characters the most, and Priceless, well, Kimura dramas are always a must-watch.

I haven't been able to watch ANY of the year end music shows because they're all four hours long and I never have that much time to myself. I haven't even watched Arafes yet. :( I did finally manage to find torrents of Countdown and Kouhaku that are a decent size, so I have them downloaded and ready to watch. I'm planning to watch Countdown before I leave for work this afternoon since it's only an hour long.

And this kind of touches on my one resolution for 2013. I don't even really like calling it a resolution, it's just something that I HAVE to do: move out on my own again. When I first moved back in with my parents this summer, it wasn't so bad. I had plenty of opportunities to get down to the Cities to see my friends, and my parents were gone every weekend so I had my my own time and space. Bust starting this fall, I've been absolutely miserable. My mom is ALWAYS THERE. No mater how many times I try to tell her that I need a little time to myself, she doesn't understand because she needs to be around people 24/7. December has been especially bad because work has been hell and then I get home and instead of quiet time to wind down, I get pulled into one of my mom's projects. Don't get me wrong, I love my parents but I just can't live with them. And living in a smalltown sucks when you have no friends there and there's nothing to do.

It should be obvious that my goal is to get a job and move out (and I have been applying for jobs and had a couple of interviews but I guess nobody likes me). But this isn't just something that I should do, it's something that I really need to do for my own well-being.
mynamelessname: (Arashi ☂ 嵐 squares)
2nd-Jan-2013 07:16 pm (UTC)
peekabuta: (Default)
hey this is ri, i'm already signed into dw haha.

COMMENT QUOTA WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK. i'm curious to know a) what the quota is, and b) how she tracks it.

and i thought i defriended people for dumb reasons, lmao. wow.

good luck moving out! it's definitely hard but i think you can do it. :D
2nd-Jan-2013 07:24 pm (UTC)
mynamelessname: (Default)

I think she said that her comment quota was 10? There's actually a program you can download to run stats on your LJ and it includes comments received. I've done it before, just as a fun way to see who spams me the most (in a good way, obvs) but I wouldn't dream of using it to see who to defriend. lol.

Thank you! <3
2nd-Jan-2013 07:21 pm (UTC)
gimmick_game: (aiba sing it out)
I echo Ri completely. Comment quota? WTF? I don't think I'd want to be bothered with something like that, holy shit. I wouldn't even want to track it.

Keep your chin up, bb. Things will settle soon enough. Just keep your eye out for good places and keep padding that nest egg and things will work <3

Edited 2013-01-02 07:22 pm (UTC)
2nd-Jan-2013 07:28 pm (UTC)
mynamelessname: (Default)
Yeah, she was already playing games about internet friends being better to her than RL friends (and I'm in the awkward middle of both) and she'd whine about not having people to do stuff with but she'd cancel on me when we made plans to go see a movie (she actually posted on fb that she'd rather go alone than to wait to see it). So I'm just sick of her drama.

Thanks bb. <3
3rd-Jan-2013 02:37 am (UTC)
nicefinalbeam: (sup jun)
Some of my best friends on LJ are people who almost NEVER comment to me because even though we read each other's entries, we talk about stuff in other places like messenger and twitter. Seems ridiculous to defriend someone you know in RL O___o Cry for attention, methinks.

The music shows are all great, and Arashi is amazing as usual. You'll enjoy them when you get to them :)

I understand about the moving out thing. For me, I actually love my family and am worried I'll feel lonely if I leave because I'll have to truly be alone each day in an apartment (not that I can afford one atm anyway), but... at the same time? I keep feeling held back in some ways by being here. I wish you the best of luck with your resolution! Your well-being is numero uno!
3rd-Jan-2013 02:48 am (UTC)
mynamelessname: (Default)
Yeah, if I had a comment quota, I would end up defriending some of my favorite people. For me, it's not the number of conversations but the content.

I have heard very good things about the year end shows. :)

Yeah, I've lived on my own for a few years, so I know that it's better for me in the end. My goal is to find a job somewhere in the cities, (which is likely because there are many more jobs there than in my small town), then I'll be closer to friends and better able to see them more often, and I can still come home on weekends as often as I want and see my family.
3rd-Jan-2013 02:56 am (UTC)
nicefinalbeam: (Default)
Ahh, yes! This would be the dream. I have a job in a great spot, it's about an hour and ten minute commute each day - sometimes more. I would love to get an apartment there because I love the area, but it's so damn expensive because it's a wealthy DC suburb. If my student loans weren't so high, I could actually afford something pretty damn snazzy. UGH IF ONLY. I WANT. Maybe in 6 months to a year.

I really, really hope you get what you want. You aren't asking for much! <3
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